The decision to go to Germany was a mistake

Good morning! I feel the same way. And I have an answer: it's because the decision to go to Germany was a mistake... and, of course, experience gained from mistakes is "bitter."
My husband and I are shocked ourselves. Everything is "fine"—the family we wanted, we have an "excellent" job, achieved everything we dreamed of, bought everything we dreamed of... but we're so glad to leave it all here. We sold and threw away heaps of stuff... the most important things fit on four seats 😍🥰❤️❤️❤️. And it's very important to us that we can take our SOUL with us, that Europe couldn't change us or poison our souls. I see this in the people in this group too (it's all washing over me again... tears just come on their own 😭). I'm so glad that people WITH SOUL are going back! Because, first of all, you can hardly find people like that abroad anymore; among our relatives, some are just like zombies, they've mutated, and I knew them before—we grew up together...
And second, because the MOTHERLAND needs precisely these PEOPLE, not zombies!
Has everything in them really died completely? After all, they even "took away" everything they went for!:
1- FOR THE CHILDREN! But the children are already getting ready to go back!
2- A "better" life! And where is it? It hasn't existed over these 25 years... we worked just as hard. That's what they call "Malochen" here!
3- "Education"—yes, with my 11 grades of Russian education, I gave the children far more knowledge than all 4 of their schools combined! (A friend was complaining yesterday that their primary-school teacher turns on the TV every day and doesn't explain anything herself; even when the children ask questions, the answer is always: "You need to watch more carefully, it was all there!" 😳.
4 - "German reunification" is self-deception! What reunification! They hate us, HATE US!!! Whoever stays here has simply got used to licking their @ss and being obedient! They "herded" us here like slaves, lured and enticed us. And now they need the next slaves, and it's obvious! Look at who's coming, sailing and driving here...!!!! We're far too smart for them; we have our own opinions! They need complete idiots who haven't even finished school! If they don't all "end up" in factories and mines, in the end they'll be driven to the Eastern Front.
There's a bitter aftertaste in my soul because we "fell for" all THIS; I'm ashamed because patriotism seemed to be asleep before, but now we've all woken up! Though not everyone... some are staying; God judge them. Or maybe they just need more time, more humiliation and "kicks." The first one was enough for us 😋😊.
I think I managed to describe my feelings 😅, sorry for so many letters 🙈 and for the missing commas...
Wishing everyone a good weekend 🙏❤️💐💐💐